Dear Faith Friends,
What a gift it is to be in the high mountains. I love the rolling hills of Indianapolis and the flat, sprawling plains of the Midwest. But, oh, what a delight it is to be where the air is thin, the sky is vast, and even the trees fall away to make way for the wind!
My daughters and I had time to hike. We went on familiar paths that are ancient and new every time. (Husband and dog stayed back at the cabin.)
Then one daughter flew off to Seattle for a five-week internship, and the other took my husband back to Indianapolis to prepare for her senior year of high school and final year of basketball.
Now, I am alone.
It is surprising how disorienting it is. I make so many decisions in response to others: when I wake up, so my devotions are in quietness; where we eat; what I cook; which hike to take; how fast and far to go. Then, I become aware of other expectations and perceptions which skew my decisions and mood. Am I hiking as high as another hiker? Does the church expect me to be working harder? Why are my pictures not as amazing as someone else’s?
Apparently, I need this time to be alone with God. I need to shed what is false, to be unencumbered of expectations which are not divine, to let go of presumptions and find my soul. I want my focus to be what God wants me to do with my time and where God wants my effort to be. I want God’s expectations alone to tell me which way I should go.
Thank you for this time.
Blessings on the journey,
One thing I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after:
to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the LORD,
and to inquire in God’s temple. – Psalm 27:4